success?

gosh..i watched numbers just now..yeah d story about cute nerd professor solving crime using maths,hahhaa...dats why i love maths so much,,,well the point here is something about the nerd profesor bff said:

"Success is not about where u are, it is about how far
the distance you had travelled since you first begin"



yeah.i agreed with him, since waiting for the jpa is killing me,if nauzubillah i did not get the scholarship, i'm going to um.. and become a great doctor..considering the fact that um is no.4 in the best university in asia.well, i don't have to fly in order to become a doctor.it just that something that i had aim and in my to do list since i learn to write or talk.i may not know what i want to be back then but i knew i want to furthue my studies in uk.Now i am confused is it still a childish dream?, is studying oversea my real goal?or am i just envy my frens who had secured a place or at least feel secured as they had already got the scholar and their mum wouldn't keep asking them when will the result kluar...If studying oversea will make me an ungrateful person so please Allah take them away.but if it is a good thing for me please help me through this period, permudahkanlah jalan hambamu ini.aminnn....


"JIKA ALLAH MENIMPAKAN SESUATU KEMUDHARATAN KEPADAMU, MAKA TIDAK ADA YANG DAPAT MENGHILANGKANNYA KECUALI DIA. DAN JIKA ALLAH MENGKEHENDAKI KEBAIKAN BAGI KAMU, MAKA TAK ADA YANG DAPAT MENOLAK KURNIAANNYA. DIA MEMBERIKAN KEBAIKAN ITU KEPADA SIAPA YANG DIKEHENDAKINYA DI ANTARA HAMBA-HAMBANYA DAN DIALAH YANG MAHA PENGAMPUN LAGI MAHA PENYAYANG"
[10:107]


if i only study in malaysia but become the one of the best surgeon in the world, then i can define it as success.


owh yeah, i'm tired staring at the mail box hoping some big envelope is in it..or call from miss sweet jpa..hurm..yada yada yada....wat ever happends i'll be redha becoz it is d best for me.If i still want to go oversea i'll use my money and travel not only uk but around the world perhaps?...hehehehe


i cannot help wondering do i look like a doctor?will i be a good doctor?let just wait and see hahahahaa....